I don’t know where to start. Life has really been a roller coaster ride since my husband and I came here in the U. A. E. So many trials, difficulties, and testings of faith, patience, and trust… can’t count them all. Tears have fallen and disappointments have come flooding in, but at the end of it all, God remains faithful.
This morning, I was greeted with a bad news. Reading the message on my phone, I saw myself staring blankly into the screen. “Why” was the only word that reverberated in my mind. My mind was hollow and my mouth was shut with yet another disappointment. But in the midst of the setback, even though words like “why” and “how come” were overwhelming and were crushing my hope, I prayed. I closed my eyes and constantly reminded myself that God is good, He never fails. The person on the other line kept on presenting to me the reasons and giving me further explanations. She said time ran out for me, that “it’s not in their control.” I acknowledged her message and eventually thanked her. Then I turned off my screen and sat down for a while.
I was downhearted and confused. God knew what we needed, but why? I opened my Bible mobile app and checked out the verse of the day. It says,
But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31)
Wait on the Lord?
Renew their strength?
I was in the state of vagueness yet reassuring, wonder yet trusting. At the back of my mind, I still wanted to wait on the Lord and see how He will “renew my strength”, even if the situation was unlikely to work out. And in my mind, I knew I believed Him, and trusted Him that He can do the impossible. Yes, the impossible. Nothing is impossible with the Lord!
That day, I would often gaze at that verse. I delved into the meaning of every word and searched for that faith that was still within me. I was remembering my prayers days ago and the moments that I claimed the victory in the name of Jesus; that God will never fail me. And I did believe, that He will do something, something that only He can do.
I was in that scenario when, that afternoon, I received another message from the same sender.
“Camille, I have a very good news for you.”
In a blink of an eye, my world turned upside down. Then it hit me- the situation was reversed and the tides were turned for me! Tears immediately rolled down my cheeks. They were tears of joy and inexplicable happiness. “Thank You Lord!”, “God is good!”, “Hallelujah!” were the first words that came out of my mind. I knew it! Nothing is impossible with the Lord! Praise Him! Glory to God!
In that moment, I was filled with overflowing thankfulness and amazement. I knew it; that’s why I never stopped praying and believing! I just needed to wait for what He would do! Right, that’s what He meant when said He shall renew my strength!
I was tested. God tested my patience, faith, and trust in Him. In the end, God never fails. He never fails. The test was turned into a testimony. God heard my prayers and He honored my faith.
I love to dwell in His faithfulness and goodness in my life. I still have so many testimonies of His greatness and amazing love, but for now, I wanted to share the most recent one. True enough, when you have the Lord beside you, you will not be defeated. When you have Jesus in your heart and you truly and deeply believe in Him, victory will be yours. In this life, the tests that you face will only become testimonies. In this world, you will have trouble, but take heart, He has overcome the world!